And so heyy to every single soul out there !

Today is MY BIRTHDAY

yea , so it is JOELIN'S WORLD ^^

Wish me happybirthday yea babe <3

So damn happy only cann !

-Weikai , Michelle , Weikang , Dongqin , Kishore , Guanwei bought me a TIGGER ! a big one leh ! <3

-Justica bought me two 2PM files ! (Y) and i will love her for life <3 yeahman

-QiAn made me a muffin :D Nice leh ^^

-Ms Soo bought me Kinder Joy ! (idk how to spell ) which i want when my sis dont allow me to eat , ohgosh . Thanks :D

And i tink i will be receiving more presents on Monday

And Monday to Friday is Common test ,

So Please wish me luck too :B

Monday - English and Geog

Tuesday - Science and Math

Wednesday - DnT

Thursday - His and Lit

Friday - None + its QiAn's birthday . hehe

Gtg , to eat dinner and do my revision . Bye ^^

Just gonna say

Happy Valentine's Day people ! ^^

i died everyday loving you

i love you today

i love you yesterday

and i love you tomorrow

and the tomorrow will never end

i love you boy

HappyValentineDay <3

And i'm sick

yea

since thursday , i haf high fever

muscle ache

and sore throat

i actually recovered , except some cough

yet today

i wake up in the morning ,

i can't even speak !

for goodness sake , WHY
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omg , somemore it is valentine's day D:

IT FUCKING HURT !

changed , everything changed !

you still you , but i don feel you

you say you know what you are doing and what is going on .

Fine !

i respect you .

listen to you .

i don't want to lose you !

you was once my besties , the best of my best !

the sweetest , the one who can simply understand and how i feel

the one with the best sense to wake me up

best laugh

best smile

best in everything !

all i want is the old you

now like now , where you said you didn't change yet i can't feel you .

you isn't you anymore ! or maybe it's just me who is wrong .

i just don't know how to explain the feelings of me not sensing you .

Seriously , nothing , i don't know . i really can't say anything else more .

maybe i just failed to be a good friend who understands you ...

i'm sorry ~

You don't know her well .

You suppose to know that that's the way she behaved .

You should know even she is angry , sad , treated you badly by accident , you should comfort her and not be angry and then fed up and walk away .

You must not talk to her when she is not in a good mood .

You may not understand what exactly she is thinking , so don't judge .

You cannot just base on one action or words that she do or say and start saying she's Bitch .

You suppose to just go straight in front to give her a hug ans say everything's fine , stay calm .

You did not do what you should do yet you make it worse .

Hey im back !!

Just wanna talk about what happened yesterday ! yesterday was awesome ! <3

First , JunZhang hugged me ! LIKE A FINALLY OKAYY !

then i stayed back with Justica , Michelle and Chengyue .

then Chengyue hold my hand ! omg ! <3.<3

ilovehim alotalot ! My precious grandson !

and then we walked around sch with Michelle .

then walked pass girl guide , and Crystal from 2/2 saw me and Chengyue hold hand -.-

then she say '' eh ! they hold hand leh '' lol ?

whats wrong with holding hands right ?

like this also want say ...

then go see Ncc people ...

After that , Xandre finally finished his math and we slacked together with yiyang larh .

we played victor's phone since he off from Ncc .

then i don't know what happened to victor and xandre , they two like fight ...

then in the end , xandre slapped victor and then victor bit his own tongue and bleed .

omg ><

then soon , xandre , yiyang and Chengyue go home liao .

then not long , Justica also go home liao

then Shannon , Shimin and dongqin came to find me and Michelle from their cca

then we slacked ...

then Shannon also go back .

then left me Shimin , dongqin and Michelle .

and we went super hyper sia !!

i don't know what's wrong with dongqin , keep saying i went crazy and don't let me go near Michelle , especially her phone . Ohgosh ..

then like this lorh .

then we go see basketballer , then like 1 siaozharbor oni can ! <3

iloveher alot also ! she is just we too awesome !

then we went up to my secret place ! #shhh , no one really know where , now only dongqin know ^^

then we saw Junzhang ! omg , he is just so cute can !

then dongqin hugged him .

then after that wait for haoliang , then haoliang wait for kangkai they all then we went off together

then in lrt , still okayy lorh . nothing much .

then kishore alighted with me .

then went home lorh .

then showered finish , and received a call from my sister saying go to kangkai's house to celebrate my baby cousin and my uncle bday .

so i quickly haf my dinner and then rushed there .

then reached there , know about 1 secret , which i won't reveal here . kthanks .

then went hyper with weikang . lol !

then after that go home ,

on come play again , but surprisingly , i fell asleep while typing this half way , so yea , i continue today . that's why this is posted today instead of yesterday xD

haha , cute right me ? fell asleep while playing com . sibei li hai ! :D

so yea , nothing else le . today went to my cousin's house then now currently at kangkai house .

will be going to baibai later on yea . so i will off9 soon .

and tomorrow haf another baibai at another place , but too early sia , don't know wanna go or not leh . Michelle like don't want to go some more . hmmm , we'll see alright . kbye ! <3

Who do you think you are ? Running around leaving scars . Collecting your jars of heart , tearing love apart .

I hear you asking all around , if i am anywhere to be found .

When you need me , you call me , message me , trying to find me in every means .

But when your good friends want you and you have them , you totally forget about me , you leave me alone , you don't care about me , you just say sorry and walked away .

Don't you know that it actually hurt badly to be treated like this ?

Don't you know ?! I bet you don't know ! But I KNOW ! That's why i don't pangsey or like to pangsey people , cuz i know that the feelings really hurt .

And now you made me type this with tears , don't you feel a bit of guilty ?

Well , i guess not .

i learned to live , half alive .

You made me lose trust in you . Totally . Really .

I feel like going up in your face to tell you this . But i don't want to spoil our friendship . Well i guess we not as close as before . Maybe we not even close in the first place .

Seriously i don't know what do i really mean to you .

Just a friend when you need when no one else want you ?

A Friend who will willing to take in loners ?

Sorry , i don't own a company that take in loners . I don't .

I have feelings . Not for you to play .

I don't know you will read this or not .

I just HAVE A NEED to express my feelings .

If i don't , i don't know what will happen to me .

I tired of all this , seriously all these .

I don't know when these kind of things will stop .

But right now i just need a hug .

A hug of encouragement .

A hug where by it is given with true friendship and not fake .

I don't like fake friend .

I don't like betrayer .

I don't like hypocrite .

I JUST DON'T LIKE ALL OF THESE !

i don't know why you bear to treat a person who is hyper and crazy always wear a smile trying to be happy in front of people , so people can be more cheerful . Cheer them up when they are sad . How can you just bear to hurt a person like this . ME ! -bhb- . But how can you ?

I am a sensitive person too .

Cause i'm a girl . Who easily get affected by emotions .

But i controlled it . But this , seriously i can't .

I suffering , and no one know .

I don't know who will read my blog , or maybe no one .

So no one know , and i don't know , i don't know , no one understands me !

I'M TIRED

Yes , I'M TIRED !

I feel like GIVING UP !

I don't know how to survived in this society full of lies and fake friends .

This is just ridiculous !

I can't control my emotions any further !

I want to cry !

Cry out loud !

Cry like no one is in this world !

Cry like no one can hear !

Cry till no more tears !

Seriously , i don't know , this time round , this hurt badly .

i just seriously felt BETRAYED !

i don't know what else to do other than typing all these out for no one to read .

....

the day whereby most of us is having Reunion dinner rite ! :D

so yea , i had mine too ! ^^

see , :D okay , this blur arh ><

this is pepper meatball , cool bodoh , so yummy . ^^

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and this is idk wat eggs >< , never fail to eat this every year <3

so yea , i had it at my cousin house , and i staying over night at their house because i wanna go pray for the 1st month of chi calender , so yea ! i like to pray can :D

and so tomorrow is first day of chinese new year , so well , hope you guys can collect a lot a lot of hongbaos as you can !

have fun people ! ^^

even though i don't reli have the excited mood for cny , but jus haf fun and gain weight ppl ! xP

hehex , so yea , when sch reopen agn , i jus gonna lost my weight for omg xD

okay , short post oni , BYE !

AND HAPPY NEW YEAR IN ADVANCE ^^ <3

heyyo ! imma back :D

seriously i love the ppl round me ! <3

they jus rawks can ?! ^^

@Chengyue : This cute guy , my little grandson . The most awesome one ! The one who hug me when i wan one . The one who will force me to tell him my secret . The one who will trust me . The one who will protect me under dangerous time . The one who will say smth sweet to make me happy . Seriously , he is too awesome . And the one The one who will love me as his ahma <3

@Fatris : The guy , my best friend . I found him in secondary sch , gss . The one who never pangsey me . The one who will willing to hug me . The one who went crazy and hyper with me and without me . The one whom i can share . The one who will protect me . The one who love me for who i am as a best frenz <3

@Justica : This cute , awesome , random , dirty-minded girl , my laoda <3 . The one who won't pangseyy me UNLESS she haf no choice . The one who will accept me and not leave me when i'm alone . The one who guide me . The one who is smart . The one whom i willing to follow through <3

@DongQin : This awesome cute sotsot girl , my steadyyy . She is awesome yknow ? She have being hurt by millions and millions of people yet she still can face the world with a smile . She shared wat she have to to me , i shared mine too . I can totally trust her ! iloveher <3

@Michelle : My awesome twinnnehh ! She too awesome to be described . She helped me in almost everything i asked her . She treat me this and that when i go her house xD She is this and this and that and that . Just too awesome to be described <3

Love is just all these people who have given me . Thanks iloveyouall <3